The end.. The four and almost half year relationship has died down.. Feeling very sad and disappointed right now.. Didn't expect this is relationship to end this way.. Both parties feel deeply hurt and sad.. I still remember the first time i ask and she rejected it.. The feeling is back.. And there is no turning back anymore.. The knives are piercing through me right now and i do not know what can i do and what to do.. My world has become black and white out of a sudden when it was suppose to be colourfull.. Maybe like what people say, i may not be mature enough to handle a relationship yet.. My temper is bad, not willing to give in.. All this has become a liability to me in a relationship..
Yes the love is deep.. But that does not prove anything.. Do not know what can i say at the moment.. Lets just say that this relationship can never be back already bah.. And also thanks for all the people who have helped us in the darkest moment of this relationship.. And also sorry to you guys that i did not make full use of it and treasure the way i should.. I always say do not regret.. But this is the time when its easier said than done.. I also do not what to do le.. Guess that ya lo.. Just have to regret bah..
And to you, I am really sorry for the things that i have done to upset you.. This may be the greatest regret in my life till now la.. But i do not blame you for all these.. These are just my foolishness and my damn bloody attitude, the unwilling to give in, the unwilling to take the first step that pull me into this shit.. I also do not blame for not giving me and forgiving me that i have asked for.. I guess u also had enough le.. That is why.. I hope both of us will learn from this mistake and bring this experience to the next journey of our lives..
Lastly, thanks for all the things you have done.. I really do appreciate everything u have done.. Good luck in your studies bah.. Will support you i whatever education path u choose.. But choose carefully.. LOVE YA.. MUACKX!!
