Monday, June 29, 2009
Hey i will be canceling this blog le.. So ya.. Just to let u guys know, i am feeling very very sad now.. But ya.. will be fine.. BB
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LESLIE ^.^
Day and event that will rake up the past.. TBG was a great dance concert.. But there is something lacking which is you.. That why i say it will rake up the past.. Still remember 3 years ago, the first TBG, we went together and really enjoyed ourselves as it was a great concert.. 3 years later, it was also TBG but you were no where to be found.. That is the thing that is lacking.. Also 28th of the calender, it will always be remembered in my heart.. As it was once an important date in my life.. But now?? It will still be.. And i am still having hope.. When there is hope, nothing is gone.. Update about the concert another time.. Nitex..
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LESLIE ^.^
Haix.. Wad i date it is today.. Why can't the calendar just cancel this date.. Lol.. Make me think so much.. It is a very difficult day to pass by.. Thinking of the past month that we had.. Even though it is already 2 weeks and u have go on, but still it really makes my heart pain again.. Wonder when will it heal.. This is not the what i want.. But this is a date i cannot forget for maybe the rest of my life.. Sigh..
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LESLIE ^.^
Haven walk this road for a long time.. The feeling is super different as it is already different bah.. But realise that you are enjoying the life you have now and i think that is what you want in your life bah.. This is all i can say..
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LESLIE ^.^
LESLIE!!! U gotta wake up man.. Stop thinking of that.. It's not going to work.. Sigh.. I really do not know.. I thought i had put down.. BUT!!!!! No!! I have not.. Whenever I am alone i am still thinking.. And still feeling very sad and pain.. I really need someone to hold my hand and walk with me.. But now it seems that there is none.. Why?? Also I am thinking of doing things I normally do not like.. Need someone like you to guide me.. Sigh..
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LESLIE ^.^
Transformer was a great show man.. GUYS DON EVER MISS IT YEA.. But was a little sad.. Watching tt show makes me think of the past in a relationship.. Where u will be there for each other no matter what.. Aww... Miss that kinda feeling man.. But as i watch another show which is "how i met your mother", it says look forward and don look back.. And it says many things that make me think through a lot.. Regardless of friendship or relationship.. And right now, i am going to take the advice of what they said in the show which is to really enjoy what u are doing.. Live life to the fullest and like there is no tomorrow.. Being around with friends is equally joyful and equally happy like being in a relationship.. They also say that being friends after bring a couple is difficult.. I agree.. But after both have break the ice, it will be a very very good friendship.. Which i hope to have together with all the good friends around us drinking and of course chatting.. Hope it will come soon man.. Gotta wait for 1 to be back and for us to break the ice.. This few days really make me think a lot.. Gotta live with no regrets from now on man.. Gotta blast yea.. Update another time..P.SThe post does not mean i do not like being in a relationship or do not want to go back to a relationship. And of course love you
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LESLIE ^.^
Feeling kinda weird when school reopen yea.. Do not have the usual encouraging msg by u guys know hu la.. But yea.. Gotta get use to it man.. Shall see how again bah..
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LESLIE ^.^
1 week have passed.. So how?? Still no improvement on everything.. Be it the feeling of the heart, or the memories and the feeling of getting back.. Everything is still there.. WHY??? Hope things will improve bah.. HOPE SO!!!
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LESLIE ^.^
Who doesn't long for someone to hold,Who knows how to love you without being told
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LESLIE ^.^
Hope to have a small wedding with ........... together with close friends and families..
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LESLIE ^.^
Have a different feeling everyday.. Sigh.. Hope things will work well bah.. Kinda worried but there is nth i can do.. Just have to carry on with life as ppl say and i do feel ke xi bah.. Shall see how things progress..
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LESLIE ^.^
Today i had a very different feeling.. I do not know why.. At first i thought it was the same but when i went out to Astons and stuff.. Memories come flowing back to my mind.. The feeling is not good.. Really miss all those happy time that i had in the past.. But now.. I know there is no point looking back.. I should look forward.. I think i am really taking this well for the past 2 days.. But one thing is for sure is that my love has not died down yet.. I am just slowly accepting the fact.. Shall see how bah.. Still waiting for your reply in the mail.. Ty..
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LESLIE ^.^
Why does all this has happen?? In this world which are true and which are false.. I do not know.. Feeling so empty inside me.. People can take it well but some can't.. And i am the one who is unable to do such a thing.. I know u ppl wan me back on my feet.. But this is too much for me to accept and to stand up right away.. This fall is a really very big fall.. I thought things will work well and should grab the chance i had.. I took the chance, but it was taken away as if nth had happen.. Really feel very miserable inside me.. There is no one i could talk too anymore.. How am i suppose to get through this? Sigh.. Hope is no longer an option i guess.. The process that i am going through is really dragging me towards hell.. My life is all messed up.. All fucking messed up.. Its disrupting my life.. But how am i able to not let it to when it mean so much to me? Hope for the best bah.. I do not know what will happen next but i do not want to disappoint my family.. I LOVE YOU
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LESLIE ^.^
This is to say that the relationship has ended.. Sigh.. Feeling real real pain.. Its worse that it felt at that moment of time and the moment of truth.. I dono what can i do.. I am at a lost now.. Sigh.. Once again i need help.. But can i get the help i want? I do not know.. Haix.. I just hope u to be happy.. Love you truely..
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LESLIE ^.^
I do not know what to say.. I am really very very upset.. My heart is really broken into half this time.. The fact that i have to prepared for the worst like dickson said is really too much.. I really dono if i will be able to do this.. I dono now know if i am able to accept the fct that the feelings may have change.. I really do not know.. i need someone with me right now.. I need u.. Even though i know it will be almost impossible.. But i really need that.. I am really lost.. I NEED U!! I NEED HELP!! Sigh.. This is curently the most painful time in my life.. I dono how am i going to carry on without u.. HELP ME ANYONE!!!! Sigh..
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LESLIE ^.^
if u love someting u will do someting to protect it. it's good to hate. because. it shows u really loved.
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LESLIE ^.^
1 word.. Disappointed
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LESLIE ^.^
What should i do.. I can't get to sleep.. I am still thinking of you.. SIGH.. HOW?? Can someone teach me how?
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LESLIE ^.^
Feeling so so lost..
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LESLIE ^.^
